I attempted a chronic pain reset last night on the grounds that while my new filling doesn't hurt much normally, if I eat, or say, lie on that side it definitely hurts and the jaw on the other side hurts all the time, but much worse if I lie on that side and today wass a planned rest day. This was a mistake. For it to have a chance of working I need 10ish hours of sleep, plus several hours of lying about reading or watching a movie while I easy my body into function. It is very worth it when it works.

I did not figure in the ten o'clock phone call from the pharmacy. Drugs needed picking up today. I explained that I not only had no money, but negative money. One of the nice things about poverty pharmacy is in a real emergency, if you are this level of poor and this level of sick, they will occasionally just give you the meds. You can't do it too often, but it's there for a real emergency. With the weekend phone ins and the ones I called in last night before I discovered the back situation, I had like 12 things in, including the most important lung meds and a pricey PRN. The lady said to just come in and that they'd try to get them all filled before I got there after four, including the Doctor reup one. It took ages to get back to sleep, and dragging myself awake and trying to dress was nightmarish. The pain was dramatically worse from the interrupt plus side effects, so I headache and massive nausea on top of side effects and all the things normally wrong with me. There was enough gas for a downtown loop I knew, plus maybe enough to be worth risking a next Monday forage assuming I don't leave the house between now and then, but it's a close thing. I can't turn down free meds no matter how crap I feel, so I went. I very nearly didn't make it to the pharmacy, but I was slightly better once I was out of the car. Normally I wait for the strongest anti-nasea med to kick in before leaving my bed, but I hadn't the luxury. Normally i don't leave the house at all in this condition. It was crucial I not throw up because that would mean I wouldn't get the full dose, making things worse in the long run. Luckily there was parking in the disabled lot as I'm reduced to tiny shuffling baby steps because my legs barely work when I stand when it's like this. Luckily there was hardly any line and they had my packet waiting in expectation.

I shuffled out and came home, where I got trapped on the sofa for and hour plus because my legs wouldn't work at all. I've managed to eat and take care of plants, fish, and cats. This is why I keep a small but essential supply of ready meals. What I really wanted was a massive salad, but salad is a lot of standing prep work and I keep dropping things.

I am now heavily drugged and will likely go to bed very soon, but I needed to do some essential things here first.

I'd like to thank whoever sent money over the weekend. Apparently it was enough to pay today's over draft fees.

* It looks like I've got enough to stop the bank account bleeding thanks to benefactors (assuming pay pal transfers fast enough to overtake fees). I am already getting harassing contact over the most overdue bill, but the fees mount slower there than overdraft fees will. thank you benefactors for rescuing me.

* I used all my money on housing and insurance last month, and this month it's all went to housing and car things. I need the car to get around as I am disabled. I need to raise about $600 to stay afloat. If you'd like to chip in: Paypal [email protected]